1.  Finishing a project

2.  Selling something on Ebay

3.  Buying something on Ebay

4.  Receiving MAIL!

5.  Benefit’s Brow Bar

1.  Family on FB. Seriously. I love it.

2.  Pandora application for my Blackberry

3.  A simple iced tea with my BFF Jax

4.  Smiley face stickers

5.  Being an older sister to 5 amazing brothers and sisters.

That whole spiel? It went out the window hours after I hit “publish”.

There will always be a little of me that misses your touch, laugh, and every other tiny thing that my memory cannot escape. I wonder if one day I can look back and laugh or smile at the good times we had. Right now my eyes fill with tears. When can I reminisce and laugh? When will that time come? I just cant escape my ideal; we were meant for each other and it was my definition of true love but in my eyes true love is infinite. We obviously are not. My throat tightens as I look at the pictures displayed on my screen with the one captioned “Future Wife”, shes not me and never will be me, as I will never be her and have you.

“My tears are turning into time. I’ve wasted trying to find a reason for Goodbye.”

Did ya know May is Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness Month?

On April 1, 2008, the U.S. House of Representatives passed, by a vote of 414-0, House Resolution 1005 which supports the month of May as Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness Month.

So, why don’t you spread the word? Educate those about BPD including yourself so you can recognize it if it enters your life. Reach out to people who struggle with BPD.

Remember BPD is a mental disorder.  The result is that the suicide rate (successes) of people who suffer from BPD is 8-10%.

I mentioned I went to peruse Downtown Naperville and Bacci SCORED, per the usual.

See that glowing ring above my head?  I’m blessed and have been the last couple of weeks.

Nah… Don’t be thinking I actually scored a job or a real man.  That hasn’t happened but I am a girl who smiles at the small things.

Let me explain what has kept the light above my head glowing and my face grinning with a smile from ear to ear.

Its all just just random acts of kindness.

Last weekend was spent in Downtown Naperville. I packed myself up and decided to fondle and peruse items in the small boutiques located in the unique area.  I did a little more than peruse, I bought a lot.  Bacci also scored some cute items from Two Bostons.

The highlight was not the cupcakes I bought at Sugar Monkey, because they were not good. I never thought a cupcake could taste bad but was proved otherwise. I purchased 3 different flavors and sliced a piece off of each of them when I arrived at home.  They tasted of flour. I felt like bread was rising in my mouth as the strong taste of flour mixed with my saliva.

Anyways… A few nice things that were out of the ordinary occurred on my afternoon adventure.  The first thing occurred in the parking lot of the Hallmark on Route 59 in Naperville.  A car almost hit me but we waved and went our separate directions. I didn’t even think it was the other guy’s fault because HELLO, I am the worlds worst driver. I didn’t think more than 5 seconds about the fatal crash (note… sarcasm) and hopped out of my car to peruse Hallmark. I must have been in Halmark for about 10 minutes and I come back out to my car and a man.  The man was the guy who almost hit me.  He simply wanted to apologize.

This shit doesn’t happy in Chicago…

Further down Route 59 I had stopped at BP for gas because I was on E and had a 45 minute car ride back to my humble abode.  The gas pump kept declining my debit card.  I had no idea for why and simply decided to try it as a debit inside the store.  I grabbed a Chicken Cesar wrap because I was famished, Orbitz Sangria Gum, and 2 SF Red Bulls.  My card was declined.  It then clicked that I had put a debit limit of $300 a day after the whole Frappe fiasco.  I had about $15 in cash so I told the cashier to just put $15 in gas and take off my other items.  The young gentleman behind me said, “No reason for that. Just throw that stuff on my bill.” I thanked him graciously and unfortunately did not get his phone number.

That was last weekend….

My luck continued to this weekend where I had misplaced my phone while out shopping.  It could have been lost in Old Navy, World Market, Nordstrom Rack, or Barnes and Noble.  I didn’t realize I had lost my phone until I arrived at my Dad’s house.  I quickly google the numbers of the stores it could have been at all while hoping someone had turned it in.  The 1st store I called was Barnes and Noble and the man told me they had it locked up in front for me.

Seriously… The world would be a much kinder place if everyone did a good deed here and there or went a little out of their way for someone.